... here we go again ...

tonight is the night we start our trek cross country to visit our family and friends in NY. we are so excited!! unfortunately our digital camera busted. so we will not be able to share any photos from this trip on the blog. but hopefully there will be many stories to share ...

... 'til that happens ...

nic

pix

just wanted to throw a couple recent photo's of the kids on here, so those of you in NY can see how much the kids have changed and will be able to recognize them when we get there ;)

.. and then there was one ...

lexi has one more event and then we are off to NY!! she's completed all that she has been involved in, with the exception of the play (that will take place this friday and saturday). i can't believe we leave for NY in just 6 short days. and to think i haven't even started to pack, for any of us ...

... ok then, i better get started.

see you new yorkers very soon!
nic

thank you! ...

... i've felt your prayers. your comments on the blog, emails, and texts have meant a great deal to me. even though my situation hasn't changed much, i feel as though i am handling it better. there just seems to be way too much on my plate right now and sometimes it takes a little while to get used to it all. and really, i don't do well under pressure. you think that would have taught me not to procrastinate so much - NOT!
carlos has been amazing, not only through my melt down, but really ever since i've started my own business. not that he didn't do much around here before but he really has made more of an effort to help out. he does most of the grocery shopping, makes breakfast 99% of the time and cleans up the kitchen when he's done, makes me take naps and sometimes brings me breakfast in bed. he also will make dinner when he knows i'm not able to - whether it be mentally or physically. (and that's just a few of the things.) one day i had had a really killer house to clean and when i got home he had already drawn me a bath and had lunch sitting beside the tub for me. thanks baby! God has really blessed my life through you!!

alright, time to go eat breakfast - and i didn't have to make it ;)
nic

can't sleep, so i write

unbelievable, i am so tired but i can't sleep. i haven't experienced insomnia before, but if this is it - it sucks! everything in me tells me to sleep, but my brain won't shut down. it does for small intervals, but not nearly long enough. those of you that know me well, know that if asked "what's your favorite thing to do?" i'd say, "sleep." so why can't i? ...

my mind is full of so many things. i feel as if i am starting to spin out of control; something i was afraid was going to happen. i'm looking forward to vacation, but am afraid i'll be too far gone, mentally, to even enjoy it. the things i need to accomplish keep piling up, but my time to actually get them done is diminishing. and now with the kids out of school for the summer, yikes, no time to do things has become 'you better find time, even if it means not sleeping'. there's my answer ... i think ... but come on, no one will want to be around me if i don't sleep. i guess God is teaching me a lesson on time management. a lesson i need but better learn quickly because i don't know how much more i can take.

i feel like i am being beat up in all areas of my life. mentally, too much stuff rolling around in my brain to make sense out of any of it. physically, i'm not at a weight i'm comfortable with, i don't have any time to do anything about it and if i do i'm just too spent to actually work-out. emotionally, forget it. that may be where i'll hit rock bottom first. everything from the kids, to friends, to marriage - not that any of them are out of control -well, the kids maybe- ;) but being the tie that bids each one together is a tie i am beginning to lose my grip on. spiritually, if my faith wasn't in Jesus Christ, the God and author of my life, i'd already be in the fetal position, in the corner, sucking my thumb.

... and i haven't even started on my guilt issues ... and i won't ... at least not now.

thanks for listening ... i've got to go start making lists of things i need to get done.
nic

last days of school

what a year! i can't believe how quickly it went by. here are some pic's of the kids in some of their end-of-year festivities. ENJOY!

nic

By Her Words

'By Her Words' is the play that lexi is in. i've attached a link to youtube, that will allow you to see the movie trailer if you want.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tp0stsdbFf8

she is doing so amazingly well, we are very proud of her. but please pray for her, i'm not sure the amount of pressure she will feel as the play gets closer.

i tried also to get the promo poster on the blog, but i'm not having any luck. if you would like to see it, let me know and i'll send it to your email. i also hope to get some pix of one of her photo shoots on here as well.

thanks for reading and praying,
nic

ps - i do want to warn you, if i were to rate the play - i'd probably give it a PG-13 rating (maybe higher). i had to have many conversations with lex ...